Hey punk rocker

Ni special untuk tina. Eleh kita pun dah gerak melaka lah wak. Tak kecoh pun ! Gahaha Eye on Malacca jugak ! Hah tak kecoh pun. weeeeeeeeee~

And she starts to talk!

Hyee ! I hate my sundays, alwys do and forever will. right now i am very very distubed. feel like tearing my sister's bodies apart. then ill hve some fun ! gahah omg iam so very deeply disturbed. Crrntly, my internet's running very s-low. fuck you. Omygosh i am super bored right now. all i ever did from 9 am until right now is stalking. gahaha some called it stalking, but i called it love. woohoo i stalked almost everybody in my friend list. i tell u ah, i need money right now. all i need is my father's wallet plus his credit cards, then thre you go! perfect cure for my boredom. dang it, im done stalking. hehee ive gained a few kg's & i feel so fat and sloppy so i decided to start that diet thingy. but then i thought 'Hey let's do the whole diet program later, when i'm not that hungry' heh woke up today went to the kitchen & i saw nasi goreng on the table. ah ! what a temptation ! this is stupid. Im diyana, im no diet. Heh so now what im trying to do is, stay out from the food. may that works. insya allah, ill try my best :)

hve a nice day, gdnight love

xx

You fly, but i fall again.

Hehe Im a mess. i dnt feel so good. dnt knw why i dont. what the ef? seriously i dnt know what to do rather else than myspacing, msn-ing, & so on. heh i am so lame and im fuckingly bored. like hello, this is not the.. uh what the thing's called again, haa yes. frankenstain, i feel like somehow im still stuck in this frankenstain's era. Eurghh i miss my muhd akid, seriously. God knws how desparately i am jst fr yr touch. neeh nvm, go have fun. leave me alone, here. let me feel the pain you alwys felt. baby, could my day become any worst -.-

anyways, i am so tired right now, and i wish i kinda hve a phone with me right now, text akid say that i need him here, been days i hvnt tlk to youu, been forever since i hvnt seen you smiling at me, andd i laaave the way you pushed my head & everything you did.. the way you smile, the way you laugh at some stupid jokes ive come up, and and those melatah thingy you alwys do. I am soo missing you right now. and i rlly hope you read this, as soon as i click the button publish. what the heck? im manapos-ing. i ddnt turn into a old woman like my mother ddnt i? not that i dnt want to be like mama but the way she manaposing, wow. i can't compete to that. see what im talking, from muhd akid im talking bout mama pulak. what's hppning to me? this aint me! :( I miss my baby, i need akid to cheer me up. whre are youu im manaposing help :'(

You may kiss me again and again~

IMISSYOUIMISSYOUIMISSYOUIMISSYOUU

clearly asking poyak for some pictures can took her 7 days or what -.- so on my left i can see my sejarah's revision book. Heee i cant wait to start school back, iii mean. to start studying back. i dnt want to waste any minutes at schl not studying. I jst dnt knw why im thinking like this but yeaah ahahah uum i sound like a freak am i. hehe so yeah youu guys close yr eyes shut yr ears cs im going to tell (more like brag maybe but who cares) you bout my messy room agaiinn. hehehe. mmm my room's not a mess anymore! I jst cleaned my room jst now and ya wanna knw what.. my room is suppperrr clean ! ahaha but let's not talk bout my closet. Im telling youu eh, if i still cnt find my cardigans and some other stuffs, i swear.. my room. I swear, im gonna make my room floorless. Jyeah no doubt. So like fyi lah kan. Somebody's keeps bugging me telling his room dah jadi lawa & all. Eleeh you tunggu lah i datang, we'll see what hppn next to yr room :D

Hehehe look up the date! Hey happy belated birthday too meeee ! :D Omg im fourteen oredi. wow, 14. big numbers :D Wishes for ftnezt too, happy belated birthday bbe :) Ahaha lastlyy and very speciall i dedicated this to my love, which probably in his house wondering how cool his new bedroom is, Happy belated birthday sweet heart ! You know you'll always in my heart and baby, you really change my life too, upside down! weee, i laaaave youu <3

Lit up the world as I fell asleep

huh bad things jst love to follow me around, and this is super creepy. nightmare --" well whatever, if you can't stand the heat, get out of the kitchen. rite? rite? Yeaah ritee =.= & now look at me, cs all i want is, to be drown into being a nobody. yeah, to be sink into each other's eyes. a total nobody, perfecto, xx

please, no not this time No

everything went jst so wrong, dnt knw why though. i dnt really in the mood fr ths honestly bt crvng fr a post right nw. i read others blog.. most of them doesnt get my attention as well. haha like my blog attrct other's eyee lah pulak kan -.- my room's a mess. i hte my room, why ahah cs my room is a meess. i stll hvnt do my laundry yet, erghh dirty clothes everywheree. and and i thnk i gt nothing to wear already cs everything ws soo dirty and all of em is lying on teh floorrr. darn it. i hte dirty. so like fyi lah kan, im wearing the same baby tee i wore last three days -.- so like heey hello im smeelly smell me ! i dnt lke talkng bout my problems to the others, to me my problems arent tht important so yeah.. and if anyone's cre pun, i knw thre's nothing we cn do bout it cs ill nvr get it right. they say im a toughy, wht do they knw bout me. im no tough. wht more cld be ths perfect. i gt the perfect-est life everr bt still id nvr miss complaining bout it evry sngle day. isnt tht sounds sooo er um un-perfect? xx

don't get close, you don't even know me

a day without your loved ones hurt you can never be perfect. huhh, fuck youu yo you. i cant stand people bugging me when im still sleeping in early in the morning. uhh such a distraction.. i hate how other's mood can effect mine. this is hurt. knowing that you might hurt other's feeling when ya also in hurt. anyways, had makan makan with abah's relatives just now. weird thoo, i usually myself dont get along with anyone down there.

but today everything ws just, opened up. all of em seems, nice and very get-along with. ofcos they started the convers with how old i am, which schl im going too. bla bla same ques they asked years by years. and thre i go, answer em in a very chicky waaay. but today, it all seems so weirdd. damnn it, am so not in the mood right now. whaddup, yteell me. i dont know, all i want is not to get prgnant. muahahaha fuck you all. xx

wait until tomorrow, and i'll be fine

happy birthday dania! well since it is her birthday today, i decided to be nice to her. even tho how annoying she cn be, how irritating she could be. heeh -.- after all, it is her birthday. i mean, ofcourse i dont wnt anybody to ruin my mood on my own birthday. so yeah, later when she get back home im gonna act very nicely as if she's the sweetest sister ever. muagahaha (so not) soo as usual, mama abah gave dania's presents a lil bit early than others. abah gave her a bagg, dont know which brand but sure is ,worth it lah. ohh and a purse! which is also worth it.

to be honest, the bag and the purse is not my type, i dont know why i hve this feeling. jealous, no im not. i know im not. everyday i thought back, why in the hell i hate dania. and surprisingly i dont hve answers to that, (even tho thousands of brags cn be list here but..) cos i dont even hate her. it just.. her.. the diffrences between us. makes me feels so far apart from her. she's so better in anything, well atleast she has a reason to come back home after school. anyways, have a very happy birthday and i dont even wanna hope she read this thing -.- xx

don't leave me or death wish me

paint it black, party

im tired. tired of being scared. huhh now that's two things, tired & scared. and i dont know which one suits me in this condition rite now. anyways, two more days to go and then rayaa will take over. time passed really fast though, come on lah. just yesterday i had buka puasa with my family on the first day of ramadhan and now im going to terengganu to buka puasa with my grandparents pulak on raya's eve. haiyoo, so fast lah this year. thre's still a lot of things i hvnt do for this ramadhan, take buka puasa with friends/boyf as example. thnks for all of the invitations anyways, hehe so sorry you guys :P

i hate to be a choosy person, but in the end of the situation yet you have to be one. it's not like choosy is not okay but if in some case you suddenly become toooo choosy+picky.. yeahh. you get me don't you. okaay ill be off now, later. see ya in the next raya updtes, if there will be one lah kan -_- take caree boyfriend, i love youu much much ♥

Salam Aidilfitri

M a a f Z a h i r & B a t i n

and for my wrong doings, so sorry. tkdaa niat heee~

have fun xx

ohh another afiq's conversation! :-P

afiq: abah, afiq dah besar kann.

abah: eh mana ada lah, afiq kecik lagii.

afiq: tapi afiq dah tinggi!

abah: afiq kann boy lagiii.

afiq: abah, abah dah tak boy ke?

haha i love my brothaahh, and also my baby boyfriend hee <3

good times

afiq: mummy, kak daniaa suka subway kann?

mama: aah, mana afiq tauu?

afiq: kak dania kata hari tuu.

mama: oh mama pun suka subway jugakk.

afiq: ohh ye ke, afiq suka giant.

--HAHA--

afiq: mummyy afiq good kann.

mama: kenapa pulak ?

afiq: afiq pakai seat belt, afiq good boy kan mummy?

mama: haha aahh afiq good sangat (nooottt)

afiq: mummy tengok kak fiqah! dia tak pakai seatbelt.

afiq: dia naughty kann mummy!

mama: haha biar lah dia afiq, afiq good kannn.

if you wanna know how much i feel inside

count the stars. no matter how much time you count, it wont give you the exact answers. think twice, who would be such a dumb to count all the stars in the skies? i know i did. ha-ha i know i love stars, i know i do. yes, counting the stars won't give you anything but seeing all those stars twinkling there and here. prettyy indeed. no matter how much of em in the skies, only one will twinkle right back at ya. still, have you ever wonder why stars twinkle?

trying not to lose my head but I have never been this scared before

wow, 10 in the morning. awesome am i, wohoo. okay lah for a person like me, usually i woke up around 1-2. thanks to akidd i finally learn how to sleep well. woohoo :D anyway, do you realize. every post i updated i always mentioned the exact what's the time now. hehe just feel like telling ya. somes of you realized though, i know i know. im going to school later. which is lots of people wont be coming over today, i dont know why. huhh -.- got school's uniform to be iron to, aa school. i got my last results btw which was pretty annoying though. somehow i think, mama's already know the result even though i dont tell her any of this exam's thing. it's kinda weirdd tho, feeling that your mom might be trashing your trash.

but who am i to fight mother's instinct, im just another daughter of hers. lol*

clock's ticking very fastly, why why? sad though seeing all of your times doing nothing flies away just like that where as on that time you could do something more 'special' with your loved ones or maybe something useful. haihh, but sleeep is one thing i cannot resist lah. i need my beauty sleep! :D eurggh i think im getting eyebags. again -_- told ya i need my beauty sleep. woohoo.

sometimes i dont learn from my mistakes. maybe it's not a mistake at all. there's just some things i rather not to talk about, all i know is distance. i know i hate all of this, but this is the way the story goes on. deal with it, i know. im trying. again things happened. just this times, i dont know if could handle myself anymore. let just see if the time can do its magic. sometimes tears say it all, if only i could cry. if only i could..

im sorry, billions billions of sorry's.

i really am, sorry.

rules are for fools you idiot

holly shit, im back! wohoo, err um so it's 2am in the morning. dont know what shld i greet you guys in this particular time. is it 'hello im still up!' or 'hey hello im sleepy, talk to me' heeh who cares. anyways, im bored. let's talk ! you see, im not that bored okay. it just a feeling of you dont wanna talk to someone else rather than urself. soo heree i am! sitting up in front of the laptop doing nothing, againn. just like the usual nights. errh this thing is driving me nuts, holly cow. who actually loves a laptop with a broken speaker? ME DOES! loll huhh lamee~

ten minutes just now i said to myself, 'heyy let's do youtubee!' and here i went, typing youtube.com in the address bar and run over some search on that thing blabla and wait fr a sec for the video to load. and badaboom! no sound, no anything. wow, you reeeally got me you bloody little freeakk laptop. erghh -.-

anyways, it's almost raya now. i havent done any of my shopping raya though. or maybe i already had. somehow i got a really weird something something feeling though for this raya, heeh i alwys get some weird feelings when it comes to rayaa. dont know why i hate em so much, not that i hate it. just, a raya scence was never been one of my fav since the past couple years. i really dont know why, children chasing over duit raya, kenduri's/openhouses everywhere, kawin kawin pun ada, the baju kurung. wow i do love it. but this year.. empty. all of those feelings suddenly gone, and now im hoping for nothing.

hmm let's just forget bout raya for a sec! what to brag anyways, it's midnight, almost 3 though -.- no one's gonna read ya. dyana, dyana. somehow my name does suit me! hearing everyone's calling out your name, hee does it feel the same like heaven? knowing that everybody still remember your name, knowing that youre not invisible. laugh out loud*

8 letters, 3 words, 1 meaning.. i love you

akid's demand people, hee *wink wink

moon: if your lover makes you cry why dont you leave your lover?
let just say this is myself : *stared at the moon* would you ever leave your sky?

a special smile on a special face. a special someone i cant replace. i love you, i always will. and baby, you've filled a space that no one can absloutely can fill. i love youu and you do know that. i love your eyes, i love your smiles and what can i say dear? i love everything bout you and of course i'll never ever leave you. haha everything? as i lie down on my bed, all sort of thoughts run through my head. like why do i love you like hell, and you know what. i finally realized that you are you! and there's nothing can chnge anything bout it, because i am truly, deeply, madly in love with you! ♥

lost and insecure, you found me, you found me.

i used to afraid of dark, one day i said to my mom, "maa can i sleep with youu, this dark is scaring me" then mama said, noo i have to sleep alone. i even cried like a baby when i heard the word no from her. and so we made a bet, if i sleep alone for 3 nights in a row she would give me 10 bucks. and yes, the deal is on. the first night was scary, i can't sleep, but for the sake of 10 bucks. yeep, 2-3 am i finally fell asleep. days after that, i'd became braver and dark isnt one of my fear anymore. (not to mention height la -.-) but that was years ago, when i was 10. who knows i could be this coward? heeh, soo helloo im back, yesterday morning, a terrible cough woke me up with a slightly flu and yess indeed, heello loserss im having a fever :D yesterday ws horrible, the cough was killing me. my stomach was doing the 'grrr-errr' sound. i can't do that much thing as my body wouldnt let me to. geography folio was crap, thank god i finished it yesterday or else right now i'll be cutting coloured papers, pasting some stuffs or writing those weird geography notes. hmm who knows geography could be this sucks ?

and again i got this monthly test this coming monday, heeh. i want to study but my brain wouldnt let me to think, thank god this is only monthly test. huhh i hate fever fever thingy *cough cough or else ill be stuck in the middle of everyone's lecture. i realize nowadays im getting stupid-er than always, and i dont know why. maybe the fact that im tired with life or else, hehh idk. what to brag anyways, this is life. lol why do this youtube thingy is running so slow. can someone please tell me why, heh why it takes ages to load a 6minutes+ video. haiyoo. anyways, i love the fray and i don't know why. the piano sounds perfect, and relaxing i must sayy, lol. *cough cough there you go another cough came out, haiyoo. i am seriously tired of this fever, wish i could just sleep and the fever will be gone the next day i woke up. heeh i never get tired of dramas, dont you just love em ? *winkwink take care you gays, hoo boyy ♥

xx dyana

startin' all over again

okaay so yeaa, waiting for 8'o clock in the morning is definitely not my thing during weekends. where as i just can lay my ass down instead of waiting for ustad to come. heeh anyways, sorry for the delay gays, (heeh wth shld i apologize to you gays -.-) i was busy settling life down now i guess i forgot i still have a blog with reaaally embarassing updates on it. hihi, so i deleted them. yeah all of em. hee yeaa that was the previous months, back days. when i used to feel desprte for something i never get. pfft, yesterday's gone, who knows anyway. up there was me and lisa, her birthday was yesterday and yes happy birthday lisa :') things now are really gettin' different just hang on okay? me and poyak will alwys be by ur side, gee no matter what. wookay picture up there taken the day when lisa forgot to wear her pad during her period days. what the fuck i know. hihihi i look good on webcam btw, psst psst and so did she :p so this new life we're talking bout, i got a new guy and i got it good. and he's awesome too, i love you baby i do i really really do woohoo thanks ♥ :')

gotta go, 8.30 already. take care you guys, xx

aint that a kick in my head

things right now is a mess. i can't even smile every single time i thnk bout what will happen and how am i going to deal with it later. hmm, so how aa? im too scared to deal with this so yes i took the wrong way. back days i used to think why people need to go tell everyone their problems and all this and that. but now im starting to realize that people do need a good listener. err atleast i do need one -_- i dont know who else to refer, they said you can tell everything to your mom. and i guess not. things with my parents doesnt seem right at all. i may looked like i dont cre wht's gonna happen with us but the fact is, i really really really do care.

and all i need is second chance, deep inside im just a little girl with fragile heart that youu need to hndle with care. i got no other else to refer, i guess im just so lucky that i stll have my best buddies that really understand my situation. not to include the advises they gave, reaaly really helping. i stll remember that day i went to school with fucking eyebags, and my schl van drver were teasing me telling me they already knew bout my problems at home and i was lucky i hve such a great understnding frnd. one by one came and none of them ask me why, it's like they knew i dont need a 'why-why' question.

againn, deep very deep inside of me i know i need to fill up this 'empty place' in my heart to achieve something that wouldnt last forever, happiness. hihihi :p sometimes i feel like i dont know myself at all, i can chnge my mood easily. it's either youu wanna be happy or you dont have to be happy, your choice. i am really sick pretending that's evrythng ws okay and i am really sick people asking me how's my life going on. isnt that very obvious that im in pain? i wouldnt know what to do.

evry steps i took lead me to a dreadful disaster. so how im going to make things right? i can't pretend to be a happy person 24/7, each time i came back home from school i know i looked really gloomy and very pathetic and yess, home is the last place i ever want to go besides school. i tried to read i tried keeping me busy but all i did was thinking bout all my problems and people involving it, idk why at this stage i keep thnkng bout somebody else rather thnking bout my so-called 'future'. not to forget, i also hate being a jerk and keep messing with other's feeeling. i know wht it's like to be hated by everyone. trust me, i do know.

mama been telling everyone bout all of my attitudes lately, and everyone ws looking reaaally down at me and they thnk im already spoiled. must she tell evryone in the neighbourhood?