don't leave me or death wish me

paint it black, party

im tired. tired of being scared. huhh now that's two things, tired & scared. and i dont know which one suits me in this condition rite now. anyways, two more days to go and then rayaa will take over. time passed really fast though, come on lah. just yesterday i had buka puasa with my family on the first day of ramadhan and now im going to terengganu to buka puasa with my grandparents pulak on raya's eve. haiyoo, so fast lah this year. thre's still a lot of things i hvnt do for this ramadhan, take buka puasa with friends/boyf as example. thnks for all of the invitations anyways, hehe so sorry you guys :P

i hate to be a choosy person, but in the end of the situation yet you have to be one. it's not like choosy is not okay but if in some case you suddenly become toooo choosy+picky.. yeahh. you get me don't you. okaay ill be off now, later. see ya in the next raya updtes, if there will be one lah kan -_- take caree boyfriend, i love youu much much ♥

Salam Aidilfitri

M a a f Z a h i r & B a t i n

and for my wrong doings, so sorry. tkdaa niat heee~

have fun xx

ohh another afiq's conversation! :-P

afiq: abah, afiq dah besar kann.

abah: eh mana ada lah, afiq kecik lagii.

afiq: tapi afiq dah tinggi!

abah: afiq kann boy lagiii.

afiq: abah, abah dah tak boy ke?

haha i love my brothaahh, and also my baby boyfriend hee <3

good times

afiq: mummy, kak daniaa suka subway kann?

mama: aah, mana afiq tauu?

afiq: kak dania kata hari tuu.

mama: oh mama pun suka subway jugakk.

afiq: ohh ye ke, afiq suka giant.

--HAHA--

afiq: mummyy afiq good kann.

mama: kenapa pulak ?

afiq: afiq pakai seat belt, afiq good boy kan mummy?

mama: haha aahh afiq good sangat (nooottt)

afiq: mummy tengok kak fiqah! dia tak pakai seatbelt.

afiq: dia naughty kann mummy!

mama: haha biar lah dia afiq, afiq good kannn.

if you wanna know how much i feel inside

count the stars. no matter how much time you count, it wont give you the exact answers. think twice, who would be such a dumb to count all the stars in the skies? i know i did. ha-ha i know i love stars, i know i do. yes, counting the stars won't give you anything but seeing all those stars twinkling there and here. prettyy indeed. no matter how much of em in the skies, only one will twinkle right back at ya. still, have you ever wonder why stars twinkle?

trying not to lose my head but I have never been this scared before

wow, 10 in the morning. awesome am i, wohoo. okay lah for a person like me, usually i woke up around 1-2. thanks to akidd i finally learn how to sleep well. woohoo :D anyway, do you realize. every post i updated i always mentioned the exact what's the time now. hehe just feel like telling ya. somes of you realized though, i know i know. im going to school later. which is lots of people wont be coming over today, i dont know why. huhh -.- got school's uniform to be iron to, aa school. i got my last results btw which was pretty annoying though. somehow i think, mama's already know the result even though i dont tell her any of this exam's thing. it's kinda weirdd tho, feeling that your mom might be trashing your trash.

but who am i to fight mother's instinct, im just another daughter of hers. lol*

clock's ticking very fastly, why why? sad though seeing all of your times doing nothing flies away just like that where as on that time you could do something more 'special' with your loved ones or maybe something useful. haihh, but sleeep is one thing i cannot resist lah. i need my beauty sleep! :D eurggh i think im getting eyebags. again -_- told ya i need my beauty sleep. woohoo.

sometimes i dont learn from my mistakes. maybe it's not a mistake at all. there's just some things i rather not to talk about, all i know is distance. i know i hate all of this, but this is the way the story goes on. deal with it, i know. im trying. again things happened. just this times, i dont know if could handle myself anymore. let just see if the time can do its magic. sometimes tears say it all, if only i could cry. if only i could..

im sorry, billions billions of sorry's.

i really am, sorry.

rules are for fools you idiot

holly shit, im back! wohoo, err um so it's 2am in the morning. dont know what shld i greet you guys in this particular time. is it 'hello im still up!' or 'hey hello im sleepy, talk to me' heeh who cares. anyways, im bored. let's talk ! you see, im not that bored okay. it just a feeling of you dont wanna talk to someone else rather than urself. soo heree i am! sitting up in front of the laptop doing nothing, againn. just like the usual nights. errh this thing is driving me nuts, holly cow. who actually loves a laptop with a broken speaker? ME DOES! loll huhh lamee~

ten minutes just now i said to myself, 'heyy let's do youtubee!' and here i went, typing youtube.com in the address bar and run over some search on that thing blabla and wait fr a sec for the video to load. and badaboom! no sound, no anything. wow, you reeeally got me you bloody little freeakk laptop. erghh -.-

anyways, it's almost raya now. i havent done any of my shopping raya though. or maybe i already had. somehow i got a really weird something something feeling though for this raya, heeh i alwys get some weird feelings when it comes to rayaa. dont know why i hate em so much, not that i hate it. just, a raya scence was never been one of my fav since the past couple years. i really dont know why, children chasing over duit raya, kenduri's/openhouses everywhere, kawin kawin pun ada, the baju kurung. wow i do love it. but this year.. empty. all of those feelings suddenly gone, and now im hoping for nothing.

hmm let's just forget bout raya for a sec! what to brag anyways, it's midnight, almost 3 though -.- no one's gonna read ya. dyana, dyana. somehow my name does suit me! hearing everyone's calling out your name, hee does it feel the same like heaven? knowing that everybody still remember your name, knowing that youre not invisible. laugh out loud*